Newsletter for May 17, 2024

Why me?

Do you ever think that? 

Why is this happening to me? Why do I have this horrible problem? Why am I experiencing this? Why, why, why? 

I have had this feeling countless times in my life. Why was I born to this family? Why isn’t my son talking to me? Why are some of my children having to face the problems that they are facing? 

Today for the first time I had an explanation! One that actually made sense. 

We all have to endure life and its challenges because we learn from them, and they prepare us for things that may happen in the future. 

Remember that saying, “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.” 

I believe that today. 

Can life be hard and challenging? Yes! There is no question it is hard at times. But, if we didn’t have the challenges we wouldn’t know what peace and serenity were. 

Today I was listening to the Hallow app and the story of the Blessed Mother Mary. Mary was a regular girl but, it now is believed, and maybe was alway believed, that Mary was put on this Earth and born to her mother by the Divine. She didn’t always have it easy, can you imagine becoming pregnant after never having sex! That would be unfathomable. One would be questioning like crazy but she was! Mary was pregnant and gave birth to Jesus. I am sure she thought to herself, why me! Why was I chosen???

We all go through things that challenge us and make us think why me…. 

I believe that we all brave things that we question but if we can think to ourselves that there is a reason and we might not know right now the reason why we can trust that it is part of our Father’s divine plan. 

We all get to make choices and have free will. It is our decisions that lead us to where we presently are in our lives. Some decisions in the moments we think are the best idea and soon later find out we were wrong. But, we don’t have to question. We just have to trust that we are where we are for a reason. It is time to take this opportunity to grow and change. We can’t let it kill us. 

Drugs and alcohol made my life bearable. It made the why so much easier in the moments. I could live! I could go on. In a way alcohol saved me, but it also stole from me. It stole my heart and my soul. I was in so much pain, I needed something to quell that pain and alcohol did the trick till it didn’t anymore. When I put down that last drink in August of 2006 I had to face the why and figure out a new way to cope. I went to 12 Step meetings and talked…I let things that had been built up inside go…I found my person that listened and didn’t judge me. I could be honest! 

We all get to be honest today and say yes, this isn’t fair and this is really uncomfortable but I can endure. I can go on. In fact, we get to look at the why and say why not me? I get to feel these feelings and be challenged because this challenge is going to make me stronger, wiser and able to actually help others that may go through the same experience. 

Listening this morning to The Blessed Mother’s story but also Mary Magdalene's story, I felt a real peace. They both were challenged and they came out the wiser and examples for us today to be able to relate and know in our hearts that we can and will get through anything.

As I am writing this, I see my rosary, and think back to just 2 months ago and the thought that I would ever be saying the rosary daily would be absolutley ludicrous! I hadn’t practiced Catholicism in decades and now I couldn’t imagine not doing it. It is like brushing my teeth! I have to do it because it fills me and my heart. It gives me the sense that I am doing something to better things, not just for me but for my family and the world. 

We are living in challenging times but I believe from the bottom of my heart that there is a reason. We are all going to be able to look back and say we got through it! It was hard but we did it and we learned. 

Life is so interesting and amazing! 

If life were always easy and we all just sat around and ate bon-bons it surely would be boring and uneventful! Some days I wish my life was uneventful but then I wouldn’t have the courage or knowledge to share from my heart. 

I want everyone to know that they aren’t alone. We all question and ask why; we all have something to handle and some things are easier to handle than others but you have to know that you are never alone and maybe even have some faith to know that this is making you stronger! 

You are amazing and you get to experience it! 

I hope you have a stupendous weekend! 

Have a happy, happy life and keep getting busy living sober. 

XO 

Elizabeth aka Bizzy