Newsletter for July 11, 2024

Midsummer

Happy Friday, the fourth of July has passed and the heat is here. I am sitting here in not so sunny South Florida relaxing, it is ironic because I keep thinking of my childhood when it was hot in St. Louis and how we just sat on the couch and watched TV. When my Mom would tell us we needed to get out of the house we biked, swam and played tennis. We didn’t have a schedule…we just truly were couch potatoes. 

I think back to those times fondly. Life was easy, we had done a year's worth of school and it was time to just hang. 

Today being an empty-nester and living in an area that literally becomes a ghost town in the summer is forcing me to chill! Relaxing isn’t always easy for me. I think that if I am not busy that something is wrong. I have friends call and ask; “What are you up to?” and my response is “Not much LOL”. I don’t have any fires or drama. It’s quiet. 

Being quiet today I realize can be uncomfortable, but I want to change that! I want to view my life differently. 

In AA I was introduced to the concept that we are exactly where we are supposed to be. God has a plan for me. Why fight it? 

Because of society? Because of all of the noise?

Surrendering is hard! But fighting the feelings is even harder. 

I know that God is truly in charge! It is my job to get right with him! And a bonus in my life after my trip to Medjorgia is that I also ask the Blessed Mother Mary to be with me as well. I ask for their help. I can’t manage on my own but knowing that I have God and the Blessed Mother with me I know that I am OK, even better than OK! I trust that they have my best interest at heart and I can let go….

Getting to this place where I can truly rely and trust God has been recent. For years I stayed in fear, resentment and a sense of uncertainty. I questioned if this is all that life has to offer…ugh! Why? Why? Why? I regretted the past and constantly wished things were different.  

I finally surrendered! It took a lot of pain to finally give up my will and know that God’s plan has to be better than mine. I had to let go..

Today I am embracing this time of quiet. I trust that everything is exactly the way it is supposed to be. Even the things that are unpleasant in my life. Nothing going on in my life is by mistake. I need to embrace this time because let’s face it, nothing stays the same. 

Everything is constantly changing… 

Have a wonderful weekend. 

Sending big hugs and love to you all. 

XOXO 

Elizabeth aka Bizzy